The Last Annual Volunteer State Run is getting close . . . July 10th is the start!! Oh shit!!
Okay . . . everyone at every race sets up all the reasons they might not do well! Not enough training miles, injury, sickness and all sorts of other bullshit! I do that too! It gives me great excuses for not doing well. And honestly . . . I'm not lying! There are good reasons I won't do well!
But Vol State is a totally different animal . . . one I have never faced before. And I'm scared.
Okay . . . I've failed at plenty of ultras so one more failure really wouldn't be that bad . . . right? Honestly . . . I'm really not very much of an ultra runner. Oh . . . I've finished a bunch and I guess that does qualify me . . . but realistically . . . I suck! I suck overall! I suck in my age group! I just plan SUCK!! But I do try.
I could blame my poor performance on misfortunes . . injuries, etc. But honestly it's deeper than that. I just am not a very good ultra runner. Period. I sort of try. And sometimes I convince myself I am giving it all I have. But usually . . . I don't. I try harder than some maybe . . . but I RARELY push myself to my limits. Physically I probably have more talent than I have mentally. Hahaha!! That's a sad reality!
Oh . . . I try. Believe me I try. But honestly I just don't have that "If the bone isn't sticking out of the skin . . . you can go on" attitude. I'm weak. And Vol State isn't for the weak!! Vol State eats the weak for breakfast!
Don't know about Vol State? Well . . . here is the skinny!
314 miles . . . starts in MO . . . Ferry to KY for 10 miles. Then enter Tennessee . . . cut diagonally across TN . . . run a short while in AL and then finish in GA!! 314 miles. You have 10 days. Only a 50k a day!!! Sounds easy! Heck . . . you can walk that!!
And you can. Many do! But if you think walking 50k each day for 10 days is easy . . . well . . you are just plain STUPID!! Come try it!!!
This is a freaking beast! Maybe the first few days is doable . . . but you have to be tough as steel to finish this sucker . . . physically . . . yes . . . but mentally is WAY more important! Your body follows where your mind can take you!! And when you mind quits . . . you are out of options!!
So no bullshit . . . I"m trying to decide if I should give this a go! I had planned in trying last year . . . but foot surgery in June killed that idea. So I decided to try for this year. But then another foot surgery in December. Then . . . two eye surgeries in April! WTF!! But everything seems to be okay now and I'm trying to build back up!! So far so good!
But in late April I had my first big test . . . the Virginia 24 Hour. Honestly I did okay for the first 20 miles or so . . . but then my foot began hurting. Bad. I pushed on until I finished 42 miles . . . but the pain was bad. And I quit. Period. And no post-race doubts . . . I had honestly given it all I had. My foot was done. No damage but it simply couldn't go any further.
So . . . Vol State is quite a ways longer than 42 miles . . .and even with additional healing time . . . I'm doubtful it would hold up the whole way. And this trip is a long, long trip to have to bail out early. A day's drive to get to the finish. Then a day's bus ride to the start. And if I quit it could take 4-5 day or MORE to get back to the finish depending on when I quit!!
So do I just give this a go? Or do I defer again for another year? It's not cheap!! But . . . I'm not getting any younger! But 314 miles seems unrealistic since I had to quit at 42 miles just a few weeks ago! Honestly . . . I don't need Pollyanna blowing smoke up my ass! Honestly . . . I'm trying to decide if I should just give this a go . . . or defer another year. Either is a good option.
I'm leaning towards deferring but my wife, Connie, thinks I should go try it. Of course . . . she is the beneficiary of my life insurance policy . . . Hmmmm . . .
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